 Confession to make  Friday, October 19, 2012
Hey guys, have a confession to make...
I don't know if I'm doing the right thing or not...
I just did it because I think that what they did is a bit far...
My (BF)friends said something about my form-teacher and my friend
and I knew it because I get more saying from 1 of my (BF) friend*...
I decided not to tell at the first place because
1)I knew I would lose this (BF)friends 2)They would be hurt
3)I do not want to betray them
But by not telling it, it seem betraying my friend that they said...
But I went to tell one of my good friend about what happen and
he decided we should do something about it... But by thinking of
the plan, I find it evil and by doing this I felt betraying them...
I do not want to betray them as I would not be feeling good...
God says 'We should not lied'... There's a saying that say,
'Once u start a big lie, u will make up more small lies to cover up
that big lie.' I do not want this to happen as at last I would hurt until
my (BF)friends so I decided to tell (BF)friend* about all this...
Of course I knew she will tell my (BF)friends because she also
cannot take this thing and if she didn't tell them they would think that
she also team up with me and betray me... I can understand how she felt
because I felt it before... So I guess 5 of my (BF)friends is lost...
My good friend said once I said out what happen to 1 of them, he will
unfriend me... And he told me if I tell that (BF)friend* what happen,
she will surely tell the others and not friend me... I knew this would happen
but I still decided to tell because I do not want to betray them... So my
good friend is lost... I think now by using 2 hands and 2 feets I can count
how many friends I'm left with...
I'm the one that spill the secret than I'm the one that felt
guilty about what I did so I went to tell my (BF)friends...
Now, I had lost them but after all I didn't regret to tell them
that I betray them because by not saying I do not feel good and
to be honest, they meant a lot a lot to me...
Do u understand that kind of feeling?
When at school u realize u have very less friends and u felt uneasy around them.When u're just waiting to get home. Hide in somewhere. Just let everything out that u kept all day. That feeling of desperation. U're tired. Tired of everything. Tired of nothing. You just want somewhere to be there and tell u it's ok but in reality none is going to be there. U know u have to be strong like a bull for yourself, because no one can fix it for u.
But u are tired, tired of being strong, tired of faking smiles infront of your friends just to let them knew u are alright. For once, u just want it to be easy, to be simple, to be helped, to be saved but u know u won't be but u are still hoping, still wishing. And I'm now staying strong and fighting with tears in my eyes.
In Jesus Name,
Amen
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Confession to make Friday, October 19, 2012
Hey guys, have a confession to make...
I don't know if I'm doing the right thing or not...
I just did it because I think that what they did is a bit far...
My (BF)friends said something about my form-teacher and my friend
and I knew it because I get more saying from 1 of my (BF) friend*...
I decided not to tell at the first place because
1)I knew I would lose this (BF)friends 2)They would be hurt
3)I do not want to betray them
But by not telling it, it seem betraying my friend that they said...
But I went to tell one of my good friend about what happen and
he decided we should do something about it... But by thinking of
the plan, I find it evil and by doing this I felt betraying them...
I do not want to betray them as I would not be feeling good...
God says 'We should not lied'... There's a saying that say,
'Once u start a big lie, u will make up more small lies to cover up
that big lie.' I do not want this to happen as at last I would hurt until
my (BF)friends so I decided to tell (BF)friend* about all this...
Of course I knew she will tell my (BF)friends because she also
cannot take this thing and if she didn't tell them they would think that
she also team up with me and betray me... I can understand how she felt
because I felt it before... So I guess 5 of my (BF)friends is lost...
My good friend said once I said out what happen to 1 of them, he will
unfriend me... And he told me if I tell that (BF)friend* what happen,
she will surely tell the others and not friend me... I knew this would happen
but I still decided to tell because I do not want to betray them... So my
good friend is lost... I think now by using 2 hands and 2 feets I can count
how many friends I'm left with...
I'm the one that spill the secret than I'm the one that felt
guilty about what I did so I went to tell my (BF)friends...
Now, I had lost them but after all I didn't regret to tell them
that I betray them because by not saying I do not feel good and
to be honest, they meant a lot a lot to me...
Do u understand that kind of feeling?
When at school u realize u have very less friends and u felt uneasy around them.When u're just waiting to get home. Hide in somewhere. Just let everything out that u kept all day. That feeling of desperation. U're tired. Tired of everything. Tired of nothing. You just want somewhere to be there and tell u it's ok but in reality none is going to be there. U know u have to be strong like a bull for yourself, because no one can fix it for u.
But u are tired, tired of being strong, tired of faking smiles infront of your friends just to let them knew u are alright. For once, u just want it to be easy, to be simple, to be helped, to be saved but u know u won't be but u are still hoping, still wishing. And I'm now staying strong and fighting with tears in my eyes.
In Jesus Name,
Amen
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#1 - Travel to Taiwan
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A capital of denmark filled with interesting architecture and arts
which makes me really eager to go there and explore.
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